Just a poem that I wrote earlier tonight...

[benjetta96]

Let the record show I was in a very dark place tonight. So dark, it inspired me to write again. Do not worry, anyone who might have stumbled upon this, I have no intention of killing myself. I'm not that selfish.

By far not my best work, but the truest and most heartfelt I have ever let the public see. I want to work on this a little more, the ending is too abrupt for my liking....

The name of this poem is [b]Suicide Note[/b]

[i]Let us sit down
Let us pretend that I'm a real human being
Let us pretend that I never hurt her
Maybe if this never happened, I wouldn't be here now.

Let it be known that it was never my intention
Just a side effect of my many selfish endeavours
All I wanted was for her to love me
Not for her to blame herself for my melancholic state.

But now
I sit here with a gun to my head
I try to talk myself out of it
The guilt is too strong
I cannot go on living now that I know I hurt her.

Boom.

I am gone now.
Now I am in an expensive oak box
Certainly the most expensive possession I have ever called my own
Such a senseless thing to spend money on
Just to be put in the ground
Never to be seen again

It must have cost my parents a fortune
Money they didn't have
Even in death I still give people troubles
But I guess that's how I was made
Troublesome.

Maybe someday
Somewhere
Somehow
Someone will understand the shit that went through my mind.

But does it really matter?
I'm dead
I should be at peace.

No, I can never be at peace knowing that I hurt her
Never.[/i]

[Tracy]

Honored that you shared that, but it's not nice to make me cry!
It's okay though, your forgiven.

:hug